There have been many points in my life where I have hung out with a group of friends. I have always said i'd rather have a few close friends than a large group of friends. I am one of those people who likes to be close to my friends, get to know them, know that i can tell them anything and they won't judge me or blab to others about it. A friend that feels they can confide in me as well with their worries, fears, annoyances, even just vent, and know that I wont tell others about it. The problem I have with groups is I feel like I am always the outside person, two or three or four others always seem to be closer to each other than they are with me. I don't know what that says about me. Selfishness, lack of self confidence?
Thats where my idea of family comes in. I always feel the same around my family. Of course they can get on your nerves like friends can, but in the end they are always there. You can go without seeing family for months even years, yet when you finally do see them you are still as close knit as you were before, well at least for me.
Don't get me wrong, I have some amazing friends and I know we can't always stay as close or be as open with each other as we wish we could. My close friends near and far are what has got me through being away from my family and friends that aren't here.
It doesn't help that my hubby is about to leave for another deployment, so my mood is everywhere lol, just something that has been on my mind for a few weeks, and it always feels better to vent :)